brotherlove

hey purple pieman
i see you ve got yourself a queen
i hope you did not steal her
off a strawberry field
you know that those who try to bake
sweet women into pies
they are forced to hide their face
and parade pumpkin skin
so better be an honest man
and let your queen stay true

you think you re luke skywalker
lightsaber in your hands
still hidden in your pockets
some far away go plans
hear that soft strong whisper
is it meant for you?
no need to grab your rocket
and launch to planet blue
tonight the skies have opened
and a stars come down to you

and when your mind starts wandering
in your deepest sleep
and you dream as gaston
to make the world a treat
one invention you can’t create
is a girl you’d like to date
how to mix and model her
for love to consume the two
some things are gifts
we can’t pursue but only can await
today we toast and laugh with you
a violet burning has become real for you

now all those years of jumping into rushing streams
from high to deep cool places
for that sweet adrenaline
you ve always shown an elegance
in your daredevil ways
now my heart is proud to see
you ready for the waves
going for the lands beyond
with a dancer in your embrace

you

you firefly rocking the skies
how i love to see your sparks play free
watch and laugh as the wind
tries to tease invite you
to see yourself with ease
i could sit with you
watch your face and rest
drink from the moment
sip slowly and enjoy how it fills
my soul with lightness
just knowing you exist
a sweet creature
bizarre , blessed
with lightning unpredictable
filling the air with
the spectacular
who would have
remembered still
exists

sneaky dream

a sneaky dream

creaping here inside of me

who knows how it got in

undiscovered undercover

it shows no face

and takes in whatever space

it lurs around

and cant be found

invisible invincible

it will not let me pin it down

to its place

i chase through the mazes

of my heart

the traces it leaves are easy to mark

it sticks out its tongue

and runs away

i laugh but it refuses to shake a hand

negotiate a plan

o sneaky dream why cant you socialize

and finally take off your chicken disguise

what are you searching in my soul

lift your hands up

drop the treasures

they are mine, not destined

to be held by sneaky fingers just like yours

dream held high

a dream held high

hoping it to be

become the promise

in it i see

cristal ball up in the air

holding it weighs heavy

watch as its image turns a maze

it reflects only haze

i ll take it and crash it down

the pictures will burn in flames

all emotions flow ablaze

errupted and gone

hey didnt i hold it sweet this time, didnt i

didnt i leave it to breathe its own way

a dream held high

oops i’ve just let it drop

and now

the world has stopped

the walls come down

and now

my arms are free

to receive the

dreams that

chose to come to me

security in culture

Feel blocked by this culture. Cannot put my finger on what it is exactly. Its the invisible part. Triggers the trauma of sect-intimidation. There are expectations in the air. They remain undescribable. Judgement in the air. It remains ungraspable. And then the lines begin to blur and I no longer know if its only mere projections. I empty myself of all pressure and fill myself with positive strength and courage. Only to feel it ripped down again. There is no safety in this community. A helpfulness, a guarded warmth. Is it to be trusted? There is some interest but also much distance. Inconsistency. And the judgement. The fucking judgement. Its a total déjà-experience. What can I build on? Not on external acknowledgements, encouragements. There are no explicit welcomes. No practice what is preached. I search for words of security. A hug with honest sunshine. What is the hidden agenda? Tight, uptight. Shake the atmosphere, please break the glass, let the sparkles fly and enchant us. The love, the trust in ourselves, in each other, please let it flow out. Unstoppable.

hope unplugged

a soft breeze hugged

my soul today and shapped it to a smile

promised to lift me high

above a fire that was

burning me like clay

magic carpet carried me off

scattering down all burdened thoughts

dropped in a bathtub

sound of hope unplugged

she was singing me a song

sending bubbles through my soul

tickling me once more

as the water danced me into a trance

to the tune of hope unplugged

emotional jetlag

emotional jetlag

nights with eyes wide

and stomache cramped tight

mornings keep the shutters shut

and let eyelids drop

holding the heart tight

so it will

turn solid stop flowing out

when the day comes

sunglasses mask a moonwretched face

and the zombie – numb – moves

from place to place

thats what you re meant to be

pull yourself together and wring it all out

you re a shiny starlet sunshine making us proud

if you dare to holler, we’ll drop you right out

here’s what you’re meant to be, here’s what you’re meant to be

the mask is in the cupboard, you can wear it now

we’ve even got a nice text for you to chat about

for your feet we’ve got batteries, it will make you help with ease

here’s what you’re meant to be, here’s what you’re meant to be

lets polish up that button and press it for smiles

we’ve lurred you up on stage, there’s no running away

get your act together and show us that play

the one that we want to see, that’s what you’re meant to be

wash that sadness off, got no space to stop

and breathe

golden shoes

golden shoes

shining

standing on

a dirty pair

of stairs

golden shoes

waiting ready

on a step

a cutout

of a steep

case of stairs

golden shoes

glowing

confident to

walk the

rough edged

stairs as

slow as light

in their own

pace

to take

the invitation

for

adventure

in dignity

golden

shoes

shining

 

control

franctic control

bind them

force them

to love us

to want us

to miss and not forget us

bind them

build safety

illusion

controlling fatamorganas

holding pieces of air

let go

power misdirected

will not be suffocated

striving to

discover

to conquer

difference must be

breathe

embrace the feeling

empowered

react fearlessly

we will be

safe and free

in love

controllessly